On Being – Chapter III – Our Universe


Big Bang theory holds that the universe and everything in it, was at one point in time packed into a single, tiny ball, of near- infinite density. Collapsing further under the force of its own gravity – also near infinite – our ‘little bundle of joy’ got to the point where it could contract no more without spontaneously exploding; physicists define this as the critical mass threshold. The universe continued to shrink, the critical mass threshold exceeded, an explosion occurred  –and the universe was expressed. After a time, the Big Bang ‘shrapnel’ cooled and coalesced into nebulae, galaxies, stars, planets, etc.

At the point of critical mass, there was but one active consciousness – the I AM. Unitary and alone.

Then God thought, “Let there be light.” The appearance of light is the first observable phenomenon in the universe. There would not be anyone but God to observe just yet. God’s seminal creative expression happened at the precise moment critical mass was exceeded. Some scientists expect the universe to reverse its Big Bang impetus, as the force of the original explosion dissipates to the point where the gravitational attraction among celestial objects overtakes it.

At that point, the universe will start to contract. Eventually, all that exists – all light, matter, and energy – will once again end up packed into the tiny ball our story began with; and, one may assume, the Big Bang repeats.

Let There Be…Darkness?

Recently, the Hubble Telescope returned images from the remotest regions of the universe. Astronomers noticed things were further away than the force of the Big Bang can account for. They conclude that the universe is expanding faster than anyone thought. Two critical observations arise from this: First, the energy of the original explosion is not the only mechanism of expansion  in the universe. Second, given the existence of other forces of expansion, gravity might not be enough to reverse the expansion; theoretically, at least, the universe could end up in random dispersion and zero energy state. No energy, no light, no life – just random chunks of material floating around aimlessly and forever.

How do physicists and astronomers explain our universe’s surprising rate of expansion?

Dark Energy and Matter

The existence of a dark version of matter and energy had not been determined by observation or direct measurement; its existence had, rather, been inferred, after astronomers noticed the light from far away stars was bending on the way toward Earth. Einstein’s General Theory of Relativity states that gravity will affect light the same way it affects matter and will actually bend light.[i]  But there wasn’t anything visible, between us and these distant stars, massive enough to produce the gravitational pull necessary to do the job. Whatever was responsible, it had to be something invisible, and astronomers backed into the discovery of dark matter and energy.

Astronomers have dubbed this light-bending phenomenon, Gravitational Lensing. They also believe dark energy plays a secondary role in the hyper-expansion of the universe,  by interfering with the gravitational pull among objects composed of light matter.

Scientists speculate the universe is 70% dark energy and 25% dark matter, by mass. The remaining 5% is light’ matter – the material we can actually ‘see.’ Given such large quantities, the gravitational pull that ‘dark’ material can exert is enough to bend light, and to interfere with the gravitational attraction among light matter objects racing outward from the Big Bang epicentre.

Only gravity can reverse the expansion of the universe. If the expansion cannot be reversed, we will end up with a universe of randomly distributed objects at near-zero energy state. Lifeless. In this scenario, how would the universe ever recover? If the universe is God, and God the universe, could this mean the end of all things?

The existence of dark matter had been postulated since the 1930s. Dark matter produces little, if any, light. Brown dwarf stars may contain dark matter; but their contribution to the universal inventory is thought to be quite small.

Dark matter is non-baryonic – the technical term for material that is not made up of atoms, electrons, neutrons, protons; or their subunits, such as quarks and gluons. Dark matter has no electrical charge. It cannot interact, electromagnetically, with baryonic, aka light matter. If, for example, you or I were to step on an area of dark matter, we would fall right through – as though nothing  were beneath our feet.

The fundamental forces operating in the universe – gravity, electromagnetism, the strong force, and the weak force –may affect dark matter differently than they do light matter.

Might Einstein’s famous equation governing the conversion between light matter and energy,

E = mc2

(in which E is the amount of energy possessed by some thing, m is its mass, c is the speed of visible light), also apply to the conversion between dark matter and energy? In that case, what value might c possess?

The material making up the cosmos is also found in living things. The dark matter and energy of the universe is in us, if it is in the universe we are part of. An article appearing in the Huffington Post[ii] ponders this very idea. Light and dark matter, light and dark energy, ego and non-ego, consciousness(or the lack of it), are all a part of the immutable fabric of God and the universe. What is changeable, is which side of the universal consciousness dichotomy we choose to give our  attention to. What we are conscious of, our souls will engage with. If we are in ego mode, we will generate and exchange the energy associated with ego.


Matter – Anti Matter and the Two Seminal Universes

Antimatter was discovered in 1932. Antimatter is composed of antiparticles (go figure!). It appears that the components of baryonic (ordinary) matter each have their antimatter ‘ alter ego,’ but the universal inventory of antiparticles is thought to be quite small. Positrons, for example, are the antimatter equivalent of electrons; but have a positive charge. Anti-protons, anti-neutrons, and anti-nuclei might combine to form elements such as anti-helium. It is thought that when ordinary matter and antimatter come into contact with one another, the result is the utter annihilation of both, and releasing a disproportionately large amount of gamma radiation in the process. [iii] One version of the Big Bang asserts the bang resulted from the collision of two primordial universes; one made of matter; the other, of antimatter.

But how would the existence of antimatter account for the universe’s increasing rate of expansion? Currently, some are putting the blame on antigravity fields generated by the antimatter leftovers of the original collision.

Particles of matter have masses comparable to their antimatter analogs. They generate comparably strong gravitational forces among objects of their kind. However, antigravity and gravity are mutually repulsive, and the repulsion effect is used to account for the universe’s faster rate of expansion.[iv]

I will not bet my whole bag of marbles on the matter-antimatter Big Bang scenario, as is. I do not think it is essential for the respective universes to have existed separately, and that they simply ran into one another. Rather, I am inclined to think the ‘universes’ would be coextensive; occupying the same space, but not at the same time, and that there was enough ‘time-space’ existing between respective bits of matter and antimatter to avoid touching. But what scenario might account for the harmonious coexistence of mutually destructive elements on the one hand, and the catastrophic Big Bang explosion, on the other?

Prior to the original explosion, the universe of matter and antimatter underwent compression to the point where adequate separation was no longer maintainable. There was literally no way for the matter and antimatter to ‘dodge’ one another, and the explosion happened.

My Version of the Big Bang – (Don’t laugh; everybody should have one  )

Cyclic motion is a fundamental operative of Nature. The progression from night to day and back to night, the four seasons, the phases of the moon, waking and sleeping, breathing – these are but a few of an infinite number of examples. The lives of all living things are affected; humans, as much as any other species.

The universe, the Body of God, is a living thing. The universe’s ‘exhalation’ corresponds to the Big Bang expansionary phase; it’s ‘drawing in of breath,’ to the Big Bang contraction phase. During the latter phase, the non-ego informs the conscious mind, and the ego informs the subconscious mind. There will be an increasing sense of ‘oneness,’ on the part of all sentient beings. Upon the ‘exhalation,’ the universe’s operative consciousness will have switched to ego, and sentient beings will feel an increasing sense of separation. The Big Bang is the point of inflection marking the end of the non-egoic phase, and the start of the egoic phase.

During the non-egoic phase, it is as if all souls are being gathered in and reconciled unto the universe (God), and to one another. When this phase ends, and the Big Bang occurs once again, the total reconciliation of all that exists is accomplished, and then undone in an instant. Reconciliation is a fundamental aspect of non-egoic consciousness. During the non-egoic phase of the cycle, the Mind and Heart of the Creator are busy formulating the Creative Idea. The moment the Idea is formed, the Big Bang happens, and the universe (the 3rd Emanation manifestation of God) is born.

All that was united in a tiny ball, is now separate and mutually distinguishable. Whereas the contraction phase gathers all of these elements together into one soul, one spirit, and one mind; the Big-Bang phase features the decomposition of these into a limitless number of independent souls, spirits and minds.

The ego is now the mind’s default mode of consciousness. This means ego has the ‘pole-position’ with respect to being ‘heard;’ and that sentient beings will tend to see the world from a self-ish point of view.

But this does not mean non-ego is no longer able to be a significant force. The will, however, must exist to access it; because now it is ‘buried’ under ego. It is no longer on the surface, but this does not mean creation stops, or that love disappears. The Mind of God still thinks, the Heart of God still loves, and the Spirit of God still acts.

Consciousness is eternal; we are part of that consciousness and therefore eternal. We are distinguishable, one from the other, because of ego. Each one of us exists independently; it is a consequence of the exhalation phase of the eternal cycle that we are more self-conscious. It is an effect of the contraction phase of the cycle that we grow less self-conscious, and more occupied with consciousness of God, the universe, our place in the larger scheme of things, and of course, of the needs of the souls we share our homes, communities, and world with. As we become more conscious of ourselves, we become less conscious of God; the extreme being we have no sense of God at all (atheism). Conversely, as we become more conscious of God, we become less self-conscious; the ultimate goal being total reconciliation with God, and with all that exists. We remain individual, only now we are fully mindful, fully present, fully engaged, and not preoccupied with our individuality.

While the expansion phase is ongoing , we are inclined to think too little of God, and too much of ourselves. We take ourselves way too seriously – some of us, enamoured of the luck and success we are enjoying in life, might even think of ourselves as gods(Nero, Jimmy Jones, many leaders in ancient times), or believe our wealth is purely because of our personal quality and hard work, and the poverty of others is because of their lack of quality and laziness; that random chance is not a factor. Well, imagine if Bill Gates had to grow up in today’s Congo. Do you suppose he would have still ended up founding Microsoft?

Free will is possessed by all sentient beings. As the expansion phase progresses, the contribution of sentient beings, aside from God’s, becomes more of a factor: they grow more self-conscious and less God-conscious. They are more likely to use their free will in a selfish way; less likely to use it in an unselfish way. For example, we are increasingly more likely to plunder and corrupt the Earth; rather than to act as stewards and be resolute in doing whatever it takes to heal it. During the contraction phase of the Eternal Cycle, those living at that time will tend to think and behave non-egoically, according to the ‘spirit’ of the cycle they are in.

Can the Universal Light-Dark Matter Ratio Affect Us?

There is good in the world; but for the starving, the violated, the poor, the kidnapped children of Congo’s Boko Haram, the murdered students in Mexico, the victims of terrorism, and the young people seduced by terrorist groups, how much can that be?

Auschwitz. Nagasaki. Anywhere from 40 to 75 million lives were destroyed in WWII; in only six years. The magnitude of horror visited upon the men, women, and children caught up in the business of waring nations is unimaginable for us in these days. Most of our generation, save for those unlucky souls living in the Middle East, cannot imagine that it is possible for anyone to have so much hatred toward others, yet the violent insanity which was begun by Adolf Hitler still happened. Humans showed themselves capable of perpetrating the most egregious evil upon other humans – even upon children.

That misery, oppression, and war continue to proliferate in this day and age is absurd. So is our continuing plunder of Mother Earth, even though our behaviour has brought us close to the ‘point of no return.’ We are not, as group, behaving rationally, if we put short term economic growth ahead of things like, oh, climate change, or Mother Earth’s ability to provide for us and to absorb our waste. We continue to develop and burn fossil fuels, despite the damage to the environment and to our health. Some entertain the dream of colonizing a dead planet – a dream which would cost a tonne of cash to realize; rather than invest in renewable, sustainable, non-polluting energy technologies, and saving this one. How can we be so silly? Well, if ego is calling the shots, the cavalier dream of going to Mars will somehow seem more enticing than the prospect of rolling up our sleeves and nursing the Earth Mother back to health.

A trip to Mars, or avoiding global catastrophe. Which would you choose?

Connecting the Dots

In the Emanations scheme of things, all souls are producers and consumers of energy. All souls are connected. The energy exchanges that occur among souls are facilitated by the Grid, a karmic device in which every soul is a node. The internecine antipathy which is preventing humans from unifying against their common peril, mimics the dissociative influence of antimatter and dark matter upon the evolution of the universe.

To briefly summarize the manner in which these dissociative processes play out among humans:

  • Dissociative energies are felt by humans as negative emotions, such as jealousy, hatred, anger, depression, etc.
  • The egoic bias of the soul sheath is due to the mind’s absorption with self; seeing the world entirely from a self-ish perspective, rather than seeing the self from a ‘global’ perspective.
  • The mind’s willful preoccupation with its own doings causes it to be ignorant of the Prime and 2nd Emanations. For the ego-bound mind, the 3rd Emanation world is all there is. This is because the mind is interacting with the world exclusively through the physical senses. The physical senses are 3rd Emanation phenomena. To be conscious of the 2nd and Prime Emanations, you need to employ your 2nd Emanation senses: intuition, ESP, clairvoyance – that sort of thing. To do that, you need to be in a non-egoic frame of mind.

In the absence of countervailing associative tendencies, could the existing dissociative tendencies ultimately drive the universe to soullessness and death? ‘Shaitan,’ ‘Satan,’ or whichever personification of evil you prefer, is busily replacing God’s Creation with one of his own; one over which the bad guy, not the Creator, is master. But Satan’s idea of perfect is a  dark, zero-energy universe. How could anyone wish to be ‘lord’ over something like that?

Milton explores this very theme in Paradise Lost. Some time before the appearance of Man, Satan, the most beautiful of God’s angels, got it in his head to be master over Heaven. This would mean mastery over God too; which is impossible, of course: all things created by God exist within, and are a part of God-the universe. Since no part can be greater than the whole, this venture of Satan’s was doomed from the beginning. Satan refused to accept this, lost the war, and was cast into Hell. He was defiant (and stupid) to the end:

“Better to reign in Hell than to serve in Heaven,” Milton’s arch-demon proclaims.

Satan chose to be master over a place like Hell, than to serve in Heaven. Who could make such a choice? One who values power and control to the point of ridiculousness. They would rather rule over a cesspit of their own making, than serve, share, and collaborate in a beautiful world that everyone is working for, and which is made by God.

Milton’s depiction of Satan provides us the quintessential portraiture of ego: the absurd and inevitable outcome of ego-dominated thinking. Satan aspires to something that is certain to result in profound misery, and ultimately, his own death.[v] He desires ‘short term’ control above his own life. Could we be that silly?


[i] Landolfi, Rob. (March 27, 2016). How does gravity alter the trajectory of light? In PhysLink.com. Retrieved March 27, 2016, from: http://www.physlink.com/Education/AskExperts/ae661.cfm

[ii] The article can be read here:  m.huffpost.com/qc/entry/7425108

[iii] For an excellent article on matter – antimatter, please go to: http://www.exploratorium.edu/origins/cern/ideas/antimatter.html

[iv] Zyga, Lisa. (April 13, 2011). Antimatter gravity could explain the universe’s expansion. In Phys Org News. Retrieved March 25, 2016 from: http://phys.org/news/2011-04-antimatter-gravity-universe-expansion.html


[v] Though Satan’s soul may die, evil itself, of course, cannot, anymore than ego can; they are both fundamental attributes of existence.